From the blog, Taking my life day by day, step by step.
  Okay so I had my first pointe shoe fitting yesterday and it took a suprisingly short time around 30 min. In the store the shoes I bought felt great but now I feel a sinking feeling in them when I place one foot en pointe and not the other. This I am afraid of discouraging me to continue my quest through the next 5 years or so to finding the ... Read more »

From the blog, aerodroma
this is the second day at our new apt. he was kind enough to set up his laptop for me so i could come here. well... nice, the SI chat is on. well i'm in now. he's raving... should be home by 4. i hope i'll be asleep by then. my back is hurting, have been sitting here for too long. talked to people... i didn't think i had anyone ... Read more »

From the blog, Sang sur les Murs
Thanks to everyone who has commented on entries... I don't really know blog etiquette... do I reply? Anyways, thanks people. Kinda ill today, just withdrawal, but cancelled therapy. I miss not being shy. Y'know when you want to talk so bad to someone but you don't have the courage to ask them to listen? Happens all the time to me. All the time. Elections are Tuesday and I still don't know who I'm ... Read more »

From the blog, georgelucas on air
Oil paintings is a kind of painting that used transparent plant oil to make paint, was drew to model artistic image on those cloth, paper, wood and etc material which has a set base. It was original in Europe, and became one of the cosmopolitan important paintings in modern times. The EggTempera, belonged to European painting that were made beofre 15th century were the predecessor of oil painting. When ... Read more »

From the blog, Closer to God, one tear at a time
Lord God, please forgive me.  I truly honour this person and respect him, I thought; why on earth did I have to act in such a manner last night?!  There was no reason for it whatsoever! I’m shamed.  I’m feeling rather stupid, and I don’t want to have to let him go because of it.  I feel terrible.  Lord God, please forgive me.  I’m sorry.  I should not have acted that ... Read more »

From the blog, A Blog of Thinking Allowed
In spite of having audio difficulties the first hour and half of the movie Fireproof (was that a/c hum through the speaker the devil's feeble attempt to ruin it?) I did enjoy the movie.  Almost expecting the typical half baked, half done attempts at movie making I experienced such as with the first Left Behind movie, I was pleasantly surprised with this finished product.  Using only a half million for ... Read more »

From the blog, Deje los pájaros volar libremente.
As a child, my mindset was that if you weren't smart, or didn't have a talent then you were useless. In my mind at the time I would have rather be dead then be stupid, I was sad and felt worthless because I thought I wasn't paticularly smart and I screwed up at things all the time. I felt as if no good could ever come tfrom me and that ... Read more »

From the blog, Who Cares
maybe if i bang my head enough times maybe i will stop this feeling in my head, maybe it will stop all of my shit -i hate me i hate everything i want everything to go away ....to just fuck off and leave me the shit alone ... Read more »

From the blog, A Week In the Life
The title of this entry seems pretty obvious.  Read the newspaper especially the obit section--everyone dies; some at a way too early age. So what's the point.  Look at how much time gets wasted on a daily basis dealing with  relationship ambivalence--For example,  look at your current relationship.  Is it good? Is it meaningful?  Is your partner the person you thought they were?  Have they changed? For the better or worse?  ... Read more »

From the blog, Becoming the phoenix
I feel so dirty...so so so sick Everytime I close my eyes, everytime I try to sleep, I can here...I can fucking feel..................... I feel so sick, I am so fucking disgusting,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, Rage lives inside me, I am so tired, but to sleep is to close and to close is to rember...to be trapped in a fucking nightmare FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK I hate this all, so FUCKING much........ I'm so tired.......... I don't want ... Read more »

From the blog, Keeping Tabs
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From the blog, Annie On Her Own
...In the seventh month, on the first of the month, there shall be a sabbath for you, a remembrance with shofar blasts, a holy convocation. - Leviticus 16:24 I'm not familiar with fall weather in the Holy Land, but in New England it is clear that the new year begins now. This week (by the Hebrew calendar) marks both my favorite ... Read more »

From the blog, Someday I will
Pretty much says it all.  Dr. A told B a blatant lie regarding this seminar that involves me and she was ticked at me!  Unbelievable that she believed him! So now I get to play travel agent again!  Lucky me! I hate that.  Hate that.  And I am so sore today.  My knees are especially sore.  I can't seem to catch up because I can't get undepressed!  Someday I will! ... Read more »

From the blog, Never Give Up !!
ya hoo search >>  taqiyya haden ,,,go  to " Knives in my Throat ,,  a  54  min documentary . ... Read more »

From the blog, Finally coming together
I feel like a non-person.  This is nothing new, but I am feeling so powerless and invisible right now.  And stuck.  I don't know what to say.  Saying anything gets me in trouble.  Not saying anything keeps me stuck.  The whole thing gives me a horrible headache, and I think that maybe I shouldn't exist.  I wanted to keep this positive here, but tonight I need to try to sort some ... Read more »